Good Grief!Ok I admit it...I've been struggling the last couple of weeks.
Really in the pits. Why you ask? Did something horrible, dreadful, life threatening happen? No
Has some awful tragedy befallen you or your family? No, thank God ,No! So what is my problem?
Here is what I've learned ....very slowly...very, very slowly ...the last month.
I can take a lot. I can take something bad happening to me pretty darn well. My leaning in skills to the Lord...pretty stinkin' good when something is going on with me...BUT let it be to one of my kids....Good grief...I have a lot to learn.
Before I make this sound even worse than it was...this was not a huge deal in the span of a life time. But my daughters heart was breaking. Watching it..made me crazy. With a capitol C. Well Shelia...how is your daughter doing??? Here is the funny part...(not funny haha, but funny peculiar) she is doing much better than me. In fact, if I could choose, I don't think I'd take this particular trial from her. She has grown so much in her faith. She has leaned into the Lord. She is going though the fire and putting God as her number one, she and the Lord have built quite the Ebeneezer this last month.
So back to what I've learned...or am learning. I have a hard time turning over my kids to the Lord. Well...actually...I turn them over pretty quickly...but then....I snatch them back...and I turn them over...and I snatch them back. You get the picture. And on and on this last month has gone.
So I've decided this has been GOOD GRIEF. Who could possibly love my kids more than me?...of course my Lord. I know there are plenty of lessons for me...I'm still unpacking them. But the last month as it turns out has been GOOD GRIEF.
I'm so glad that my GOD is slow, kind and gentle with me...so glad HE is so patient. With His grace I will learn to put all my troubles at HIS feet...and quit tripping over my own.